If I Said I Love You

If I said I love you that fact would you concede or would I have to cut my wrists and let you watch me slowly bleed?

If I told you my innermost secrets, would you use them as ammunition or would you smile in acceptance and feed my ambition?

If to you I confessed all my imperfections would I be met with haughty indignation or would you take me in your arms and lift me to a new station?

If I gave you my body would you use it for a night and fall asleep or would you treasure, pleasure, fill it and then claim it as yours to keep?

If I gave you all that I had even if that all was me, would you willingly accept it or cast it into the sea?

If before your eyes I turned old, worn and grey, would you love me as much then as you do today?

If my happiness was yours and yours was mine, would that be enough or would you seek the beauty of a totally different design?

I ask all these questions just because..."if" is the biggest small word there ever was.

When I Love You Isn't Enough

I was just thinking, what do you say when I love you isn't enough? When it by no far stretch of the imagination covers what you're feeling and experiencing. It's funny when I think of three words that are seriously misused...it's those three words. Sometimes people mean I like you, sometimes they mean I want to sleep with you and sometimes it's simply a response to the "I love you" that preceded it. I'm not questioning any one's ability or inability to know what they're feeling. This is not at all about that. It's about those words being used so often with so little meaning behind them they've become as common as saying "Hello, how are you" to a passer by. You don't really mean for them to tell you how they are it's just polite. So what words do you use? How do you explain how adjectives such as beautiful and kind comes to mind when you think of that person? How it seems like every two minutes something reminds you of them so they are always on your mind? How your heart beats faster but there is calmness within you with each thought of them? When the most valuable thing you have is yourself and you give yourself to that person wholeheartedly? How do you explain the connection your body has to theirs and how it craves to be near theirs? How there is a kinship like no other between the two of you? How one of the greatest pleasures you experience is seeing them smile? And even though they happen when they are having a bad day it saddens your heart? How simple things such as holding your hand comforts you like nothing else? How you want to share and make new experiences with them? How you so desperately want to show them just how special they are to you? How just the thought of not having them around is unconscionable? How their inner beauty is so blinding that it manifests itself outwardly and they are physically the most appealing person you have ever seen? How much you long to stand in their arms on moonlit beaches and kiss like there is no tomorrow? How they know you as no one ever has? How they are the last thought before you fall asleep and your first thought in the morning? Why you call every morning because you want their voice to be the first one you hear? How you don't want to waste a single moment of the time you spend together? How even though you can talk to them indefinitely, you don't because you know they have other obligations. How you value their opinion and desire their approval? How they invoke in you a selflessness like you've never experienced before? How awe inspiring and intelligent you find them? How their love for God attracts you even more? What summation do you give to all these things? I hope you didn't continue reading this to discover an answer to that question because I don't have one. All I can tell you is that when I try to think of what to say that would let him know all the things he means and is to me...I love you isn't enough.