If

If

If life were a thought, I'd have many
If thoughts were money, I'd have a penny
All my thoughts tend to be of you
A multitude of memories to gaze at anew

If words were luck I'd have none
If words were a race, I'd be done
No amount of words can express what I feel
You can't convince me that it isn't real

If love were a lightening bug, I'd shine bright
If a lightening bug were a star, I'd light up the night
Love is something that should never be hidden
But more like a thoroughbred born to be ridden
 
If time were water, I'd be an ocean
If an ocean could commit, I'd show you my devotion
A drop of water for every second I breathe
To prove that in you, in this, I believe

If you were the air, I'd be a breeze
If you were a nose I'd be a sneeze
If you were music, I'd be a song
If you were a fork, I'd be a prong
If you were sleep, I'd be a dream
If you were thread, I'd be a seam
If you were a hand, I'd be a touch
If you were china, I'd be a hutch
All of these things go so well with the other
Like a kid sister with a protective big brother
Hold up, wait a minute, I changed gears
Creative expression of my feelings could take years
There are things inside me that'd be better expressed by a mime
Which is why took my time and wrote it and put it to rhyme
Sometimes theres nothing like seeing a person's love
To send another heart soaring to the heavens above

Hallelujah Anyhow

When my life seems as if it filled with gaps
I envision myself at Your feet my head on Your lap.
My heart is heavy, my knees are bent
Your hands are on my head and You tell me Your grace is sufficient.
Because of my love for you I was willing to die
So rest easy my daughter, there's no need to cry.
For I will be with you when all others are gone
As long as you walk with me, you're never alone.
Lord I'm tired, this is such a difficult task
Child I can do exceedingly and abundantly more than you can think or ask.
Yes Lord, to your will, your way I yield
My daughter I'll be your portion, your strength, your shield.
Thanks for the talk Lord, I feel better now
It's not over, I'm not finished but hallelujah anyhow.

In My Feelings

I was just thinking, why is it that I mostly write when I feel a certain kind of way. A shame really since I do enjoy it. It's just hard for me to write when I have nothing to say. However, today was not that kind of day. With that being said...

I sit here with my mind weaving in and out of so many things,
fighting loneliness and being serenaded by the ocean and 2 Kings.
I'm fighting a losing battle and though I know it won't last,
I want to feel like me again quickly, expeditiously, yes even fast.
Like the waves crashing in the background I feel torn apart,
as empty as the Tin Man who only wanted a heart.
Why is it that right now I feel so alone?
Each day I wake hoping to set a new tone.
I dislike these times but I understand why they must be.
I step back, take a deep breath and take a thorough look at me.
Why am I here and what should I do?
So many questions that begin with what, why and who.
Today there was rain, tomorrow will be shine,
I know because the Son illuminates this heart of mine!
So I do what can only be done kneeling,
when these times come and I'm in my feelings.