In My Feelings

I was just thinking, why is it that I mostly write when I feel a certain kind of way. A shame really since I do enjoy it. It's just hard for me to write when I have nothing to say. However, today was not that kind of day. With that being said...

I sit here with my mind weaving in and out of so many things,
fighting loneliness and being serenaded by the ocean and 2 Kings.
I'm fighting a losing battle and though I know it won't last,
I want to feel like me again quickly, expeditiously, yes even fast.
Like the waves crashing in the background I feel torn apart,
as empty as the Tin Man who only wanted a heart.
Why is it that right now I feel so alone?
Each day I wake hoping to set a new tone.
I dislike these times but I understand why they must be.
I step back, take a deep breath and take a thorough look at me.
Why am I here and what should I do?
So many questions that begin with what, why and who.
Today there was rain, tomorrow will be shine,
I know because the Son illuminates this heart of mine!
So I do what can only be done kneeling,
when these times come and I'm in my feelings.